“Your abusive partner doesn’t have a problem with his anger; he has a problem with your anger.” — Lundy Bancroft
So hurt people, hurt people, huh? That convenient. How about, hurt people know what it’s like to be hurt so they don’t hurt others. That I can get behind. Hurt people, hurt people? What kind of twisted rationalizing is that? Sounds as if you’re trying to justify, to minimize hurting my mom.
You know, after you brutalized her — and me — for all those years, after you left for another woman, she was depressed and drank everyday. She was distant and despondent. Never the same. Oh yeah, and then, one day, she took a bottle of pills to end the pain. And that was the end of her pain, but not mine. Hurt people… hurt themselves! Craziest thing, even though you terrorized her, you piece of shit son of a bitch, she still loved you. Wondered why you left her. Blamed herself. Isn’t that a bitch. The ultimate kicker. You treat her worse than an animal, over and over, yet she blamed herself. I’m guessing, though, that was part of your plan. You’re fucking evil. Unredeemable. You deserve to die, not my mom.
“I am living in hell from one day to the next. But there is nothing I can do to escape. I don’t know where I would go if I did. I feel utterly powerless, and that feeling is my prison. I entered of my own free will, I locked the door, and I threw away the key.” — Haruki Murakami
Oh, don’t give me that bullshit. Yeah, yeah, I know mom was physical with you sometimes. It was meant to temporarily stop the insanity. Your insanity. Stop your violence and hateful behavior. To protect me. Hers was a desperate, emergency attempt to temporarily stop our hurt. Yours was designed as a long-term, concerted effort to control her. To brainwash and manipulate her. That’s not the same thing, asshole. Her violence was born out of fear. Yours was born out of a sadistic desire to cause pain in others. You probably enjoyed it. Shot your load just thinking about the Hell you put her through, didn’t you. You sick mother fucker. This was all a game to you, wasn’t it?
Shut your fucking mouth. I don’t buy your story. Quit with that hurt people, hurt…